Steve6
01 Mar 2008, 23:37
For two long years I had to wait to post again and rightfully so too, after all I deserved it. At certain stages I had forgotten totally about the place even for months at a time. But I still longed to be back on again, after all you're not a TRUE Meat fan until you're a MLUKFC member. ;)
Anyway it must have been late Febuary 2006 when I was shown the door after many ugly fights and several bannings. But enough of that, I was probaly going through one of the hardest times in my life in that period. Alot of depression and anxiety problems were slowly dragging me down, and it got very seriious in July 2006 when I took something that caused me to have multiple seziures don't really want to get into it too much cause it was a very frightening experience and I don't really like talking about it anymore. However in the aftermath of that I got very ill all mental. Could never sleep, terrible thoughts and feelings just hard to describe it really.
Then in August of that year I was hardly able to lift my head and move. I was seeing things that weren't there this really was horrrifying. Then I booked an appointment to see my local GP. This was a massive step for me to take at the time, but it was one of the greatest things I ever did. Completely changed my life around. I went in told him everything that had happened through the months, and even years. He was very good to me, and told me that I had GAD Generalized Anxiety Disorder, and I was put on Anti-D's and I continued to take them and my life changed around in the space of weeks, I never felt as happy and energetic in all my life, I no longer worry like I use to I'm alot more relaxed. I have so many interests now. I even perfromed on stage last month in a big local production. I now feel like I should feel, and I'm happ again.
Just to finish things off. I'm very sorry about the things I said and done here two years ago, and the people I heard. I was 18 then I'm now 20 (I'm getting old) But I look forward the speaking to you all soon. Thanks again.
Anyway it must have been late Febuary 2006 when I was shown the door after many ugly fights and several bannings. But enough of that, I was probaly going through one of the hardest times in my life in that period. Alot of depression and anxiety problems were slowly dragging me down, and it got very seriious in July 2006 when I took something that caused me to have multiple seziures don't really want to get into it too much cause it was a very frightening experience and I don't really like talking about it anymore. However in the aftermath of that I got very ill all mental. Could never sleep, terrible thoughts and feelings just hard to describe it really.
Then in August of that year I was hardly able to lift my head and move. I was seeing things that weren't there this really was horrrifying. Then I booked an appointment to see my local GP. This was a massive step for me to take at the time, but it was one of the greatest things I ever did. Completely changed my life around. I went in told him everything that had happened through the months, and even years. He was very good to me, and told me that I had GAD Generalized Anxiety Disorder, and I was put on Anti-D's and I continued to take them and my life changed around in the space of weeks, I never felt as happy and energetic in all my life, I no longer worry like I use to I'm alot more relaxed. I have so many interests now. I even perfromed on stage last month in a big local production. I now feel like I should feel, and I'm happ again.
Just to finish things off. I'm very sorry about the things I said and done here two years ago, and the people I heard. I was 18 then I'm now 20 (I'm getting old) But I look forward the speaking to you all soon. Thanks again.