RSG
03 Aug 2003, 08:46
Hi, firstly i wanted to say is I don't really know where to post this, so I will post it here and hope for an answer.
Well long story short, its about my father. I really don't like this man. When he was living with me he used to be a real hassle, would always upset me, physically or mentally. He used to really hurt me, sometimes with a belt, he cut that a couple years back. Then he would beat me quite often. Why he would do this stuff, well back a couple times if he asked me to take my brother to the store, I said okay, could he wait half hour, I just got in the door and it was pooring rain. He just gave me one of his evil nasty looks, he always gives me, which means "your so much like your mother, why don't you just d!e." so i went down my room, put on a Meat Loaf record, to pass the time, And he was drinking and as usual under the influence of something. he stormed down my room 10 minutes later, and said when are you going to clean th F ___ing hall way. Puzzles I was, and said what do you mean you didn't tell me, but i guess i could do it. And he said your f ___ing right you'll do it, its your f ___ job as my son to do everything i say. so i said quietly, okay w\e dad i'll get to it there is just two songs left. and there were, marth & where angels sing. (first time hearing album, just bought it coming home from school) . and he left for like 10 secs, stormed in room, ripped the stereo off my hands, threw it across the room, I tried to grab my headphones so they wouldn't rip, and he threw me across my room, and when i tried to get up to leave, he just kicked me and threw me on my wall. not as worse as throwing me outside in winter with t shirt, but pretty bad, but NEways
my problem is that, this lying, mother beating, hurting me (in this board i will say ) really unkind person. he is out now, since i told someone, but now he is harassing my mother who he used to beat, and said he will get custody of us and she better watch out. but he puts up this kind identity, in front of everyone, what can I do, he tries to be this nice guy to me, but i don't want to put up with it NEmore. I'm afraid to tell him, and i don't want to stoop down to his level saying stuff saying i hate him. but i do, i'm so confused. i definetly don't want to be with him, but i don't want to say no. what can i do to over pass this guilt i don't want.
it seriously makes me very upset, cause he is my father, but he's not the one i like calling dad. i have role models, people who i look up too. he's getting worse by the day. please help, thanx. (PS my mom is the oppisote, and that is one thing that used to bug him) i was just like her
Well long story short, its about my father. I really don't like this man. When he was living with me he used to be a real hassle, would always upset me, physically or mentally. He used to really hurt me, sometimes with a belt, he cut that a couple years back. Then he would beat me quite often. Why he would do this stuff, well back a couple times if he asked me to take my brother to the store, I said okay, could he wait half hour, I just got in the door and it was pooring rain. He just gave me one of his evil nasty looks, he always gives me, which means "your so much like your mother, why don't you just d!e." so i went down my room, put on a Meat Loaf record, to pass the time, And he was drinking and as usual under the influence of something. he stormed down my room 10 minutes later, and said when are you going to clean th F ___ing hall way. Puzzles I was, and said what do you mean you didn't tell me, but i guess i could do it. And he said your f ___ing right you'll do it, its your f ___ job as my son to do everything i say. so i said quietly, okay w\e dad i'll get to it there is just two songs left. and there were, marth & where angels sing. (first time hearing album, just bought it coming home from school) . and he left for like 10 secs, stormed in room, ripped the stereo off my hands, threw it across the room, I tried to grab my headphones so they wouldn't rip, and he threw me across my room, and when i tried to get up to leave, he just kicked me and threw me on my wall. not as worse as throwing me outside in winter with t shirt, but pretty bad, but NEways
my problem is that, this lying, mother beating, hurting me (in this board i will say ) really unkind person. he is out now, since i told someone, but now he is harassing my mother who he used to beat, and said he will get custody of us and she better watch out. but he puts up this kind identity, in front of everyone, what can I do, he tries to be this nice guy to me, but i don't want to put up with it NEmore. I'm afraid to tell him, and i don't want to stoop down to his level saying stuff saying i hate him. but i do, i'm so confused. i definetly don't want to be with him, but i don't want to say no. what can i do to over pass this guilt i don't want.
it seriously makes me very upset, cause he is my father, but he's not the one i like calling dad. i have role models, people who i look up too. he's getting worse by the day. please help, thanx. (PS my mom is the oppisote, and that is one thing that used to bug him) i was just like her