Had a relatively good day even if I have been a bit lazy.
I am at a point now where I really don't care, bad as that may be. I am minus in the bank, I have my mum say to me this evening that she can't have me living here if I don't contribute as she'll need help with money... Yes help with what money I have none !! So that makes me feel wonderful and she has given me a task to write this letter.. I have never written a letter of recommendation in my life and don't know where to start, I am now sat here miserable and feeling a bit alone, not that I am after pity I really do not want that I just need to vent somewhere because I feel no matter how much I say I need help it falls on deaf ears, I am in a rut and I hate it. Yes I know what some will say and it's all too easy to say you need to find a job and all that but I think I have a real disability in that area, forms and interviews are a hurdle.
I find comfort in Michael's music, not that I expect people to understand that, IDK I've been so long out of a job now I know it'll be alot worse finding one, it has always been the case.
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